My own understanding of the twin flame concept is undergoing a little bit of revision. 🙂 Always a good thing to be open to changes and new experiences! So I have decided to do some interviews with my clients who identify their situations as a twin flame experience. I do not necessarily share all the views presented by interviewing someone else but I do feel it is necessary to share experiences. This person has been a client of mine for a long time and I have always thought her experience was pretty fascinating! Enjoy!
Based on your personal experience so far, how would you describe a TF?
As a soul extension. One who is cut from the same “soul cloth” so to speak. Another facet of one’s self, even an alter ego.
What about your TF experience feels different than a soul mate or other relationship experiences you have had?
Not only has the intensity of it been off the charts, but I have never before had the experience of essentially seeing myself mirrored back to me in male form. Also there is this pervading sense of him being with me (on a soul level) 24/7.
What was it like to meet your TF?
It was very scary and unsettling. I was very young and did not deal with it very well. How could one who was essentially a child (albeit a very old soul, but a child in earth years and maturity level!) be equipped to understand, let alone adequately cope with—and even embrace it—for what it was? As much as I was magnetically drawn to him and fascinated by him, I was also afraid of him. They say that “the eyes are the window to the soul”, and he had the most piercing set of eyes that I’d ever seen. I felt that those eyes were very dangerous and that he could look straight through me…into my soul. It is very difficult to put into words, but to actually meet that gaze directly was not only intimidating but also felt as if someone were shining a very bright light in my face. I found it very hard to look at (or be within close proximity of) him and probably came across as some sort of cold, excessively shy, immature brat. Yet he was completely harmless, a gentle soul, beloved of many. There was no logical reason for me to feel this way. But I didn’t put the pieces together until a profound spiritual awakening (many years later) that led to my conscious reconnection with him.
Can you explain how you came to find out or realize this person was a TF?
As stated above, I truly didn’t start to put the pieces together and explore this connection consciously until a profound spiritual awakening, several years after the brief, intense time that I met and worked with him. Essentially he came into my life, turned it upside down and then left to move on the next chapter in his life. Let me emphasize again that I was essentially a child (in earth years) when I was introduced to him in this life. I was not on a spiritual path at the time and attributed my reaction (to him) to immaturity and an overly-active imagination.
Flash forward to several years later. After a series of events, I stepped on a spiritual path and consciously began to work on myself. I always had an inner sense that there was so much more to spirituality than what has been conveyed in organized religion and had begun a quest to find my truth. I became much more serious about my spiritual practices, sometimes dedicating a couple hours a day to prayer, invocations and meditation. As I was soon to discover, one can NOT do this sort of work on self and NOT unearth things that were always buried deep within.
Upon doing all of this over a period of several months, this ancient soul connection was brought back into my conscious awareness through a series of synchronicities. Although it took awhile, at some point all of the synchronicities surrounding him became too impossible—even for a skeptic like myself—to ignore. And so I started on this journey of inquiry and extensive research. It was as if I were a sleuth trying to uncover a vast mystery. At that point, I didn’t even know what a TF was, yet materials on TFs mysteriously made their way to me. It is widely believed in spiritual circles that one should pray and ask for 3 confirmations in the physical. I got my 3 confirmations and then some! Every time I thought I was going crazy and/or imagining it—something else would happen! I reached a point where I realized that it couldn’t be anything else. It was as if the answer was staring me in the face all along, but I had simply been too dense to get it. I wasn’t able to see it until I had reached a certain level of spiritual growth.
Give us an example of the synchronicities surrounding you and your TF
If I were to attempt to document all of them, surely I would have enough to fill a book. Here are just a few examples of some of the things that I’ve experienced.
* A couple of times, I’ve randomly run into or have been paired with people who are associated with him in some way.
* I would receive a message in a dream that I would be hearing from him soon, and it would happen the very next day.
* Out of the blue, I would get asked to undertake a project at a place off the beaten path….only to find out later that this was a venue that he had been associated with as well.
*On a regular basis, I see license plates from his current residence (more than 1,000 miles away) and/or plates with his name on it. They almost always come in sets of 2. Once, a weekend that he was in town, I saw one that read “Hello **” [his initials]. I also frequently see the number combination 11:11. And this was long before I knew that people associate these numbers with TF’s. In one particular instance, upon purchasing something, the total had come to 11.11. And then I returned home to the news that he would come to visit on 11/11! It did come to pass.
*Things associated with him have manifested like crazy. Here is just one example. My TF was an extraordinarily gifted artist who created quite a legacy in my area. Around the time, I reconnected with him, I came across this really rare artifact (of one of his projects) that I didn’t even know existed. I also didn’t have a clue how it had happened to fall into my hands. Upon closer examination of it, I discovered that to my horror, it had been damaged. My efforts to mend it were in vain. Although I hated to impose, I contacted him and inquired as to how one could find a replacement. Although he graciously offer to help, even he (the brains behind the operation!) said that another one of these would be extremely difficult to find. I decided to continue to search for it on my own. A few days after the conversation, I found myself (killing time before an appointment) in a second-hand store across town. While browsing its vast archives, I received the shock of my life..when I somehow happened to come across another copy of this most rare item! I mean…WHAT are the chances of that?! Even more freaky is that it included an inscription on it penned by him that included the words “Thank you for X wonderful years.” The freakiest thing of all is that I had worked with him myself for X years! Now…how does one explain that?
*I’ve had all sorts of other bizarre things happen. Once when mailing out an important professional document…I found out via the tracking service that instead of being shipped to the address at the state that borders mine, it somehow managed to get shipped by mistake to his city…more than 1,000 miles away. Again, how does one explain that? And it continues…
What kinds of energetic things do you feel surrounding your TF?
I sense him within…always. Also, although I’m quite acclimated to these energies by now (having worked with them in previous lifetimes) there have been times when so much as hearing his name spoken, has triggered an energetic response from within.
What is the hardest part about having a TF? What helps you deal with it?
Maintaining the silence. Having to live in a world that would probably label me as “crazy” if I came out about the connection and my spiritual experiences. What makes this connection particularly challenging (in this incarnation) is not only physical distance, but that there is also a huge age gap between my TF and I. Those of us who are on a spiritual path are aware of the fact that the age of the body has nothing to do with the age of the soul. But unfortunately, most people are conditioned by society (and their negative egos) to overly identify with their physical bodies. They haven’t fully realized that they are not human beings having a spiritual experience, but spiritual beings having a human experience. We may have bodies, but we are NOT our bodies. So unfortunately, there are many (including him) that would most likely put us in the boxes of “old man” and “child” respectively. I don’t think I can do much to change that in this lifetime.
I am still working on better dealing with it. Spiritual practices (such as prayer and meditation) are always beneficial…and I have frequent conversations with spiritually-minded friends who’ve actually had similar experiences. It was important for me to know that I was neither alone nor going crazy. When it becomes too much to bear at times, it has been a tremendous help to have understanding friends to vent to. And I try to channel my feelings into various creative projects. If he only knew…But I’m not convinced it would be a good idea to “come out” and dump all of this on him. Surely he would think I delusional and crazy and it would creep him out majorly. I am deeply grateful for my friendship with him and do not want to jeopardize it. It is very important to know when to be silent. And to love someone unconditionally, is to accept where someone is at and let them live their life. Another issue with this connection—is that it is so much bigger than I am—there is NO way I could ever possibly convey it in words. It would most likely be taken the wrong way…and I don’t see how that would serve either one of us. So there is always a massive amount of stuff that I must process on my own.
What do you think the purpose of the situation is, or what have you learned about yourself as a result of this experience?
I continue to work at processing all of this. The challenges of this connection are such that truly there is not a day that goes by in which I don’t ask, “Why, God, oh why?” Yet I have grown and learned a lot about myself through this experience. I have learned not to associate people with their age in earth years; to see people not as bodies, but as souls temporarily wearing a human form. It is really eye-opening to encounter another person who actually comes from the same soul as you do! While there are some clear differences between us (as we are individualized personalities), in him I see so much of myself. Many aspects of his life journey and personal philosophies parallel my own. In studying his life, I have learned so much about my own soul and life purpose. He is my greatest inspiration.
Give us any advice you would give to other TFs.
Do not become too attached to the idea of ever having that fairy tale romantic relationship with them in the physical. Just because they are a TF, that doesn’t necessarily mean that you are supposed to be with them in a 3D romantic sense. This connection is so much more than that! Anyone who has ever experienced this (or any other intense spiritual connection) knows that this is not a connection for the faint of heart or spirit. The closer the connection, the harder the lessons. There is no hiding in this connection. All that must be brought up for healing will be exposed. The cold, hard reality of this is that unless both parties are willing to do the work…these connections rarely seem to work out in the physical. In many cases, a friendship with one’s TF might be preferable. The underlying lessons (presented to us in various forms) always seem to be detachment and unconditional love.
What do you think the greater purpose is of the TF scenario for humanity? Do you think TFs are rare? What do you think about the theories out there on TFs?
From what I understand it’s all about awakening to who we ARE, integrating other aspects of Self, tapping into this reserve of pure unconditional love and radiating it out to others. My understanding is that TFs are EXTREMELY rare. To quote Joshua David Stone (who worked closely with the Ascended Master Djwhal Khul), “It does not happen as much as people think.” Although it is not for me to judge, it seems that many who think they are in a TF connection might in reality be dealing with a more distant soul family, soul mate or karmic connection. That’s not to say that all of these connections aren’t important, for all assist us with our spiritual growth. But I think humanity (i.e. people’s egos) in general get far too caught up in labels and the idea that there is “only one TF who is your perfect mate.” I am inclined to think that the soul is much more vast than most people think it is. Channeled material via Alice Bailey and Joshua David Stone asks us to consider the idea that there may in fact be 12 TFs within a soul family. At this point, it goes without saying that there is no way to prove any of this. But we should be open the possibly. To grow spiritually, is to transcend our negative ego mental boxes. After all, in the scheme of things, “What the bleep do we know?”