Attacks on the light: twin flames and lightworkers

As part of the energy of awakening, which is kundalini…there are many tests on the journey, and the journey is often long.

Many of us have felt, at least in the US, with the elections that we have been plunged to another level of darkness.  This is not untrue, but darkness is usually not what it seems at first, darkness is a mask for light, or the way for the light to enter you.

Love has not forsaken us.  For love is what we are.  But yes, we are challenged.  But we have to have the faith to succeed.

As Vanessa says in Penny Dreadful, “Beloved, know your master.”  The Master is love.  The Master is what we are here to master.

Over the course of several years now of my awakening, I have been accompanied by the dark.  So has my entire soul family. It comes in different forms.  The most dangerous has been the temptation of those who masquerade as the light but are not of the light.  In varying degrees in my soul group to various temptations of addictions, self hatreds, denial of the self as a lightworker, what can only be said is demonic types of interference.

Members of my soul group have watched loved ones die in their arms, friends become possessed, pets die, demons chasing them in dreams and visions, some type of reptilian implants manipulating dream states, attacks when they have been down on the floor, just as they are ready to rise.

Me included.  Previous to this I had met the darkness in a more limited form.  But it all began with elements of narcissism and psychopathy that attempt to destroy the ability to love from the soul.

Since then I have heard about and witnessed attempts of incredible darkness to engulf the light.

The men of my soul group are waking up, attempting to grasp their true identity, their purpose, their inner divinity, their balancing of the masculine and feminine.  They have been stalked all their lives by the dark.  They have given in, here and there, but they are waking now.  And it seems the darkness threatens to consume them at times.

The dark is the Father of Lies.  Whether it is parts of the inner shadow, likely as yet unhealed, or, a collective darkness that works against the light, really doesn’t matter, as we all have to face the shadow in ourselves.  Love the dark spaces, perhaps in order to end these tests.

The dark has come to me recently with mimicry.  What is fake, what is imposterous, something the steals the face of what I love, drenches it in the dark, calls me to it, in the name of stealing energy and life force.

No more can any of us afford to consider the darkness a mere shadow, not with the reality that those who are tested get to know.  It is real.  It preys on weakness and feeds on what has not been sent into the light.

It promises faulty things that are not real but appear to be so, or, it denigrates what is real in the name of what is false.

We are living in times that require deep intuition and discernment.  Shadows have been cast everywhere appearing as the light.  The strategy has always been to divide us.  To not allow love to live by lying.

But the truth is more beautiful than this.  Light workers and twin flames are here to re-write the script, but it is apparent that the ego script will not go quietly.

We officially do not fit into this world anymore.  We are here to remake it.  In the image of love, and only love.

In a time of temptation, false prophets, egoic teachers, corruption wherever the ego takes hold.

I take this very seriously.  I know that my soul group will stand and I will stand with them in the light.  I know that many other light worker soul groups and twin flames are also undergoing these attacks and trials.  This is the worst I have seen it.

Sometimes I don’t know how we all withstand it, to be quite honest.

We must see things as they are, whether we like them or not.  And in looking these demons in the face, we will be free of them.

Now is not a time to fear.  It is a time to be strong, to be true.  One thing is for sure and the truth is certain, and that is love.  When we go within that is what we find.  The father of lies cannot cover love.  It shines through everything.

We must strive for ever deeper understanding and love, for many things are not what they appear.  We have to stay grounded, in our Spirit and in the Truth. And we have to be viligant.  This is not a message of fear.  For what is spread by the dark is a lie.  You are a divine being.  Many of us have very important missions here and we have to believe we are divine beings to succeed.

The tools of strength have to be developed from within.  And as we stand in the truth, we inspire others to do so.  It is essential.

Do not allow these attacks to sway you from the truth of who you really are.  Do not listen to lies.  Demand integrity and authenticity from yourself and from all in your circle.  Those who are not on your side will not withstand the tests, they will simply drop out of your life.

We cannot allow negative entities, interference, and the dark to feed our egos to turn against one another.  Whatever is your weakness and greatest fear and even a replica of your greatest love will be used against you.  That is why healing is paramount right now.  First and foremost, heal yourself, so there is little for the dark to hook into.

Nurture and love your own life force, protect it as if your life depends on it, because it does.  And with that your ability to help many people who will come to you for help.

Don’t allow a naive nature to rule you now.  You will be taken for a ride.  A costly ride.

Ground yourself firmly in God and Spirit and in the Light.  As in many ways we are asked to choose sides.  Love or hate.  Fear or Love.

Your life will grow or shrink according to your choice.  It cannot be based on the noise outside of you, but the truth everlasting in your heart.

These trials make us strong, make us more of who and what we are.  That is the purpose.

We have to stand strong together now and reconnect deep within.Fearlessly as light warriors.

I am doing this to the best of my ability now.  I am learning what I can to help those in my soul family and all others who come to me for help.  Not a task  I would have thought was coming, but one that I accept.

If you are in need of help from these attacks I will have a modality to offer many of you soon.  This is new territory for me but I have been tasked to help lead with this.

Center in your hearts, keep love in your sights, practice diligently and never stray one inch from the goal of love.  We were made for this.  And we will succeed.

Truths about the Twin Flame Journey

The twin flame journey is ineffable, fundamentally indescribable, a zone that is hard to put words to.  It is sublime, even though many of the world’s great love stories are based upon it, those myths and archetypes are bits and pieces of floating ephemera in comparison to the real thing.  You only know it when you are in it, and you only see it in others when you have witnessed it in yourself.

I don’t mean this in a romantic love story kind of way.  No, it is beyond.  Take whatever you know about love, and the twin flame experience is still further beyond comprehension.

Take your current limitations and declarations of “I can’t” and smash them up against the wall.  Take your understanding of the time space continuum and the beliefs about how your world operates and what you think is possible and trash them.

When you see the truth of what twin flame love is, it is like Paul being struck off his horse by the bolt of God. Imagine that light of truth striking you in the face, surrounding you and infusing you with a kundalini transformation.  That is how Saul became Paul, and every Saul twin flame will become Paul.  It is only a matter of time.

The truth is it is the most mystical, frightening, amazing AND hardest connection you will ever have.  You will be pushed beyond any limitation you have constructed in your mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual bodies.

There is no “I can’t.”  And that is the truth about the words, like unconditional love, that we throw around.

It will require you to be utterly alone, digging into the recesses of your unconsciousness for clues to heal yourself.  It will require you to scoop up your inner child off the floor and hold her screaming and crying in your arms.  It is the inner work you do to find out how to love yourself—all of you, the darkest corners of you that the conscious mind has conveniently forgot.  And in the midst of the light and dark, shadow play of awakening, you are both alone and together.

You are both fighting this battle and it gets tiresome and it gets weary.  Twin flames pull the trigger to your own self discovery.  You will never know how deep the rabbit hole goes, because it is a process spiraling ever deeper.  There is always more to learn and discover, clear, heal, work through, so there is never a true “I can’t.”  You can and you will.

It is simply not the path for every soul on this planet.  It does not fit into any box that anyone else could try to conceive of.  It is a kind of growth that not all will experience.  It is not anything like other types of relationships because it is the energetic force that is transforming our very limitations about relationships.

But we have to try to explain this, because it is the forward progression of our conscious understanding of love.  It is the front line of new template creation.  It fits into the grand design, as aspects of its connectedness can be found in our relationship to everything that exists.  There is no one you will understand better, or seek to understand as much, as your twin flame.  And in knowing them, you know very deeply yourself.  Because they are one and the same.  In understanding this unity you can see the unity everywhere.  You can seek to understand your connection to everything and everyone, whether it is pleasant or unpleasant, and especially if it is challenging.

It is an end to the concept of war.  The masculine and feminine inside ourselves can no longer be at war. They have to integrate.  Twin flames are the outer reflection of this inner integration.  We are on the journey back to one.  Back to wholeness.  We are always so close.  But, more whole as we go. And the paradox is, the inner work creates the outer reality.

The truth is, it changes you.  It transforms you.  In ways you don’t understand until later, after you have integrated its teachings.  You are not in control of it, and certainly your ego is a puny force compared to it.  That force of life that allows your heart to beat and your cells to have oxygen and regulates your body is not under the control of your ego.  It does what it does.  It is smarter than you.

It is best to know its ways, rather than to make your ways fit into it. What can I say?  It is a mystery.  It feels like a blessing, it feels like a curse.  It is your life, your journey, your teaching, your path to tread.  Accept it.  Surrender to it.  Learn it. Love it.

Then expand and love more.

Newsletter–Tis the Season for Divine Grace :)

Happy Holidays dear ones! May you be filled with the awe and magic of Divine Grace!

The divine will help us to harmonize on every level, but we have to take a step ourselves. Once you decide to take that step, God is there to catch you. You must be committed to externalizing the divine that is inside you. And you will be empowered and helped in that desire.

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Newsletter–Failure is not an option, it’s a key to success

Merry holidays readers 🙂  Enjoy this week’s newsletter!  Also there is a mighty fine sale going on for all of my services, in person, phone and Skype until Jan 9th!  Gift certificates are available!  Check out the sale here.  This only happens once a year, so get in on that ,and you can use your time at any time!

Failure is not an option, it’s a key to success. This topic is so relevant right now in many of my client’s lives.  The trials and tribulations of taking responsibility for oneself are not easy.  We have such a resistance to the idea of failure.  Most people take it to mean there is something fundamentally wrong with them at their core.  And this is never true.
The fact that you are human right now guarantees your failure.  Oh I know how happy joy optimistic that does not sound. 🙂 But the evolutionary force that is moving us all forward requires our imperfect imperfections and mistakes to facilitate learning.  That is the name of the game here in 3d.  If you are here you are in this earth school and this is simply part of the rules.  So failure is not an option because 1) failure doesn’t really exist, it is simply a stepping stone to success.  And 2) it’s not optional because it’s necessary.  Do you genuinely, deeply, joyfully, want to succeed in your mission here?  Then step right up to the plate and be willing to take a risk and fail a little, and then learn from that.  Then do it again.  And again.  Keep going, and you eventually see that you– at your core–ARE wide enough to embrace the deepest failure of your life compassionately and with great wisdom.  The greater the fail, the greater the opportunity for love and light.
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Newsletter–Moving Through Loss and Grief

There is a sacredness in all of the emotions that we feel, as they are signs of life.  The grief that we feel is due to the strength of our love, which is beautifully unspeakable. How can it be thought to be weak to love that deeply? It is a shame that anyone could think so, no? As we awaken we understand that this is just a part of life, but not the only part.  🙂  The ground of our very being is this energy and love that runs the entire universe.  And that is powerful to know and experience.

Lots of good stuff and news in this week’s newsletter, check it out here


Newsletter–The Spiritual Ego

The Spiritual Ego.  The spiritual ego develops at a certain point in a spiritual person’s soul journey.  They have begun to wake up to their true identity as a soul and a divine being.  They become immersed in spiritual activities and worldviews.  It is a joyous and exciting time.  They may even be called to start helping others and other aspects of working in the light.
And before they even know it, in walks the spiritual version of their ego.  Frankly, this happens when they have not been doing appropriate spiritual work on themselves, and usually this has to do with their shadow side.  They start to think they are better than other people, see themselves as a powerful authority figure, and attribute their gifts of divination, healing, and other wonders to themselves and not to the Source that gave it to them.  They may get greedy, money or power hungry and use their law of attraction knowledge inappropriately.  They may sacrifice their integrity and values, distort their experiences and qualifications, or think that they can use magic or any spiritual tool to achieve what their ego wants and to control others.  Essentially it is a spiritual power trip.  It can be dramatic or it can be subtle.  A more subtle form is the savior complex.  They may feel they have the right answers and now they must save and educate the world. Or their “help” is pretty much attention seeking, without the genuine desire to truly help others.
And what goes up, must come down.  The lesson that must be learned here is that your ego, even a spiritualized ego, is not in control of the world.  If there is a lack of moral integrity in your life and work, it will be exposed.  The essential quality of a spiritual person who is here to help others and not just themselves is a profound dedication to service, love of humanity and their foibles, and a relentless and humbling self inquiry into their own darkness and shadow side.  Many cult leaders are very high on their spiritual ego and take a lot of people down with them. So my advice to you is to be discerning, use your intuition and common sense with any spiritual teacher.  And be willing to not go down the same road.
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Newsletter–From Darkness to Light

From darkness to light.  The process of working with your darkness and shadow material is the way to reach the light.  That is the barely admitted secret of transformation that many people just don’t like to talk about.  But the importance of this process is evident in shamanic practice, native indigenous practice, in multiple cultural mythologies and scattered here and there in religion.
One of the last places we usually find it is in new age philosophy. Within that lexicon we have things like the power of positive thinking and the law of attraction (re-interpreted.)  In that line of thinking we should not have negative thoughts or feelings, especially anger or hatred, out of fear that we will attract that in our life.  Well folks, this is incredibly blind and shallow, no?  Not to mention unrealistic.  A deeper approach is to understand that the “darkness” has to be accepted and worked through, not ignored and repressed.  That is what the whole Halloween season does. Brings out all the things we don’t dwell on in polite society such as death, (energetic) vampires, and fear.
The first thing to do is acknowledge that darkness exists.  Hatred, anger, murder, torture, abuse, psychopaths, yes they are all real.  All we have to do is turn on the news to figure that out.  The second thing to do is understand that you have a shadow side within you.  What in you looks like what you see outside of you?  (from esoteric hermeticism–as within, so without, as above, so below.)  And the third thing to do is get busy healing those things, feeling those yucky feelings, loving that inner child, and understanding that is the path to true change–in yourself and in the world.  From darkness into light, that is the way.  🙂
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Newsletter–Feeling Stuck or Restricted?

Feeling stuck and restricted?  Many of us have been. At this point in the astrology and energies since 2012, so many know they need to make huge changes.  Anyone still in resistance will really start to feel the heat now.
Usually what happens when we feel stuck is our resistance.  Stuck and stagnant energy will always want to move and your soul wants to grow.  For many of us, it is our fear that keeps us restricted in a holding pattern.  That is the real reason for being stuck.  There is likely something that you don’t want to look at. Something you fear changing.  You may try to shut off your intuition and all the signs that point in another direction.  But in truth, the only real restrictions are the ones you place on yourself.  We do this by being too wrapped up in the mental body, thinking and rationalizing our way out of our own happiness.  We come up with excuses.  These are all ego’s tricky little ways to keep you right where you are.  So how do we get out?  If you don’t feel happy with something, that is your first clue.  Acknowledge your true feelings.  Get out of your head into your heart.  Get off the mental thought loops that keep you locked in worry and fear.  Get very clear about what you want.  Make a plan. Then go for it.
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Newsletter–The Illusion of Security

Here’s a snippet of this week’s newsletter:

Ok, this subject I am passionate about.  There is no such thing as genuine security in 3D reality.  The only, true, everlasting security is to be found in love, Source creative energy, God, the one, the foundation of all.  So the security we think we are going to find in material things, in accumulation and hoarding of anything, in our own physical bodies, in other people, in clinging to any situation as permanent, is simply not there.  So why are we trying so hard to chase after something that is not there?  I think it is because we are living in the egoic illusion that we are separate from God.  The security that we seek in all of the wrong places is our seeking for that realization of oneness with our creator.  Resolving to have that realization is the smartest and wisest investment you will ever make, and it makes a huge difference to how you relate to the 3D world.
Take a look around, everything is in a state of flux and change.  Flowing with that force and not against it is also wise.  So what are we doing when we are worried about security? We do things that we don’t want to do, in order to feel secure.  We don’t do things we want to do out of fear that we won’t be secure.  We don’t take chances or risks, because we think we have security and we are going to lose that.  We don’t make changes that we know we need to make.  We stay in a state of inertia, afraid to make a move and listen to our intuition.  We stagnate, we slow down to a crawl, and we become lifeless.  Our existence becomes determined by our fears.  Safety never created anything.  And safety is an illusion.  Everything you have accumulated you cannot take with you.  Your physical body is going.  The only thing that you take with you is whatever you have created in your heart and soul, and that never happened because you stayed in your comfort zone.  It happened because you realized who you are, what you can do, and you went out and did it.
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