There is a sacredness in all of the emotions that we feel, as they are signs of life. The grief that we feel is due to the strength of our love, which is beautifully unspeakable. How can it be thought to be weak to love that deeply? It is a shame that anyone could think so, no? As we awaken we understand that this is just a part of life, but not the only part. 🙂 The ground of our very being is this energy and love that runs the entire universe. And that is powerful to know and experience.
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The Spiritual Ego. The spiritual ego develops at a certain point in a spiritual person’s soul journey. They have begun to wake up to their true identity as a soul and a divine being. They become immersed in spiritual activities and worldviews. It is a joyous and exciting time. They may even be called to start helping others and other aspects of working in the light.
And before they even know it, in walks the spiritual version of their ego. Frankly, this happens when they have not been doing appropriate spiritual work on themselves, and usually this has to do with their shadow side. They start to think they are better than other people, see themselves as a powerful authority figure, and attribute their gifts of divination, healing, and other wonders to themselves and not to the Source that gave it to them. They may get greedy, money or power hungry and use their law of attraction knowledge inappropriately. They may sacrifice their integrity and values, distort their experiences and qualifications, or think that they can use magic or any spiritual tool to achieve what their ego wants and to control others. Essentially it is a spiritual power trip. It can be dramatic or it can be subtle. A more subtle form is the savior complex. They may feel they have the right answers and now they must save and educate the world. Or their “help” is pretty much attention seeking, without the genuine desire to truly help others.
And what goes up, must come down. The lesson that must be learned here is that your ego, even a spiritualized ego, is not in control of the world. If there is a lack of moral integrity in your life and work, it will be exposed. The essential quality of a spiritual person who is here to help others and not just themselves is a profound dedication to service, love of humanity and their foibles, and a relentless and humbling self inquiry into their own darkness and shadow side. Many cult leaders are very high on their spiritual ego and take a lot of people down with them. So my advice to you is to be discerning, use your intuition and common sense with any spiritual teacher. And be willing to not go down the same road.
From darkness to light. The process of working with your darkness and shadow material is the way to reach the light. That is the barely admitted secret of transformation that many people just don’t like to talk about. But the importance of this process is evident in shamanic practice, native indigenous practice, in multiple cultural mythologies and scattered here and there in religion.
One of the last places we usually find it is in new age philosophy. Within that lexicon we have things like the power of positive thinking and the law of attraction (re-interpreted.) In that line of thinking we should not have negative thoughts or feelings, especially anger or hatred, out of fear that we will attract that in our life. Well folks, this is incredibly blind and shallow, no? Not to mention unrealistic. A deeper approach is to understand that the “darkness” has to be accepted and worked through, not ignored and repressed. That is what the whole Halloween season does. Brings out all the things we don’t dwell on in polite society such as death, (energetic) vampires, and fear.
The first thing to do is acknowledge that darkness exists. Hatred, anger, murder, torture, abuse, psychopaths, yes they are all real. All we have to do is turn on the news to figure that out. The second thing to do is understand that you have a shadow side within you. What in you looks like what you see outside of you? (from esoteric hermeticism–as within, so without, as above, so below.) And the third thing to do is get busy healing those things, feeling those yucky feelings, loving that inner child, and understanding that is the path to true change–in yourself and in the world. From darkness into light, that is the way. 🙂
Feeling stuck and restricted? Many of us have been. At this point in the astrology and energies since 2012, so many know they need to make huge changes. Anyone still in resistance will really start to feel the heat now.
Usually what happens when we feel stuck is our resistance. Stuck and stagnant energy will always want to move and your soul wants to grow. For many of us, it is our fear that keeps us restricted in a holding pattern. That is the real reason for being stuck. There is likely something that you don’t want to look at. Something you fear changing. You may try to shut off your intuition and all the signs that point in another direction. But in truth, the only real restrictions are the ones you place on yourself. We do this by being too wrapped up in the mental body, thinking and rationalizing our way out of our own happiness. We come up with excuses. These are all ego’s tricky little ways to keep you right where you are. So how do we get out? If you don’t feel happy with something, that is your first clue. Acknowledge your true feelings. Get out of your head into your heart. Get off the mental thought loops that keep you locked in worry and fear. Get very clear about what you want. Make a plan. Then go for it.
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Ok, this subject I am passionate about. There is no such thing as genuine security in 3D reality. The only, true, everlasting security is to be found in love, Source creative energy, God, the one, the foundation of all. So the security we think we are going to find in material things, in accumulation and hoarding of anything, in our own physical bodies, in other people, in clinging to any situation as permanent, is simply not there. So why are we trying so hard to chase after something that is not there? I think it is because we are living in the egoic illusion that we are separate from God. The security that we seek in all of the wrong places is our seeking for that realization of oneness with our creator. Resolving to have that realization is the smartest and wisest investment you will ever make, and it makes a huge difference to how you relate to the 3D world.
Take a look around, everything is in a state of flux and change. Flowing with that force and not against it is also wise. So what are we doing when we are worried about security? We do things that we don’t want to do, in order to feel secure. We don’t do things we want to do out of fear that we won’t be secure. We don’t take chances or risks, because we think we have security and we are going to lose that. We don’t make changes that we know we need to make. We stay in a state of inertia, afraid to make a move and listen to our intuition. We stagnate, we slow down to a crawl, and we become lifeless. Our existence becomes determined by our fears. Safety never created anything. And safety is an illusion. Everything you have accumulated you cannot take with you. Your physical body is going. The only thing that you take with you is whatever you have created in your heart and soul, and that never happened because you stayed in your comfort zone. It happened because you realized who you are, what you can do, and you went out and did it.
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Enjoy this week’s newsletter, and happy b day to me–still a chance for you to take advantage of my b day sale but ya gotta jump on that now, more details in the newsletter.
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This week’s Energetic Forecast: I am sure many of you noticed the total lunar eclipse in Aries on Sunday. How that affected you will depend on where Aries falls in your natal chart, but lunar eclipses are usually about endings and clearings. You may feel a lot more clear now than you have in a while that some part of your life has been held back, and you now know why and what for. This is a good thing, although many people don’t like change or surprises, everyone knows that is how the universe works–you are better off going with the flow that presents itself now.
I was re-watching Rick Levine’s
take on September and it struck me when he said Sept is about “adapting to change while not losing our center.” That’s perfect. The effects of eclipses are long lasting with a six month window so expect the effects to linger. Still in Mercury retro until Oct 9th, which is basically a “are you sure you know what you are doing?” effect. We have Mars and Jupiter in Virgo which is willing to work step by step, Saturn in Sag which is making sure we are ready to make real changes. You may feel like hitting the gas and the brake which is also a good analogy, so take your time, don’t panic, and keep center.
The Dark Night of the Soul. The term for this spiritual stage comes from a poem by Saint John of the Cross. From a Christian perspective it is the time when Jesus is on the cross, before the resurrection. I am referring to it here as a spiritual metaphor for the dark night. A time period like this feels like God has forsaken you. Answers may not be forthcoming. Synchronicity has stopped. Anything you try to make work is faced with defeat. Nothing is working, it is hard to find any sense or meaning, and you feel that you have been dropped into the great void of the abyss. The same patterns, problems and programs keep replaying themselves on an endless loop. And to make it worse we have the terror of this great big giant space of emptiness. It is a time of feeling utterly alone, an ego lost at sea on the waves of transformation with nothing to hang on to as you get pounded by wave after wave.
How do we deal with this? Do not resist. I repeat, do not resist. That includes trying to make it be anything other than what it is. Quit trying for now, ease into it, feel what it brings up, and be gentle and self loving. Eliminate what is superfluous in your life and get down to basics of self care. Understand that this is a test, this is only a test. If this were an actual emergency you would be dead 🙂 haha! You can handle it! You will survive! And you come out stronger.
Enjoy this week’s newsletter, stay strong 🙂
Heart of a Champion–Strength! We are in a strength year, number 8 in numerology which is the Strength card in the tarot. What is this energy all about? It has many facets–endurance, capacity, and the power of will. What I have found is that everyone can admire strength when witnessed but only those who have developed their own inner strength understand what it takes to get there. Diamonds form under pressure. Muscles are built from being broken down and built up stronger. There are tests of strength, otherwise how would we even have anything to compare it to? How would we know it at all? We wouldn’t. The more experiences you go through in life, the more challenges you face head on, the more fear you dispel, the stronger you get. What doesn’t kill you, makes you bad ass. 🙂 I believe that. It brings out things in you you never dreamed were there. It puts you into direct conversation with the Divine, because that is where we pull true strength from. It does not come from the ego or the personality. It comes from life force energy, chi, prana, in other words–the Divine.